The calm after the storm. And my flowers are growing.
I been so so anxious these past days/ weeks about my mom coming here to visit; we haven’t seen each other or spend more than just a weekend at the others house in eight years.. this is going to get interesting.
And every time, it really never fails, there is something big like that coming up or something I really should plan a bit ahead for my OCD and anxious bug are kicking in really bad. I don’t know how many times I cleaned my rooms, my kitchen, disinfected it, did the laundry… even bought a whole new bed set for mom, went out toady cause I felt something is missing at the house, couldn’t pin point what and went back home.
Then I sat down, tried to nap, tried to calm, sat outside (I think I just cannot be in the house right now or ocd totally gets me)and finally packed my back pack for the weekend. I don’t need to take much, only gonna be in Vegas for one whole day to pick mom up, but its done now. The tickets are printed, too… I KNOW everything is ready and everything inside me will eventually calm down once I’m at the airport, checked in, waiting for my flight but, this right now: not cool body and mind. Not cool.
Thank God I can count on my better half ALL.THE.TIME. And he’s talking me down, or listens to me rambling about it (which I try not to do too often tho) amd is just there for me!!
But now bed, sleep, chill, and tomorrow will be a new, a better day 🙂